seriously. the past 2 weeks were nt easy to get thru.
firstly. as u can see frm my prev post.
my dad was nt feeling well.
in the end. the nxt day. he gt hospitalised.
i swear. i would nver want to experience such a day agn.
it started wif the morning. when my dad kept vomitting.
to sending him to polyclinic. gt referred to eye specialist.
eye specialist said dad's eye pressure was too high.
normal ppl's eye pressure shud b 20 n below. but my dad's one was 74.
doc gav my dad injection. after dat. gav medication.
dad gt home n vomitted agn.
mum called the nurse n she asked my mum to bring dad to A&E.
reached dere n dey put dad on wheelchair.
cux he was startin to get realli weak.
broke down several times cux i realli saw hw my dad was suffering.
can see dat he was in pain cux the veins on his head were alrdy protruding.
the doc sent dad for brain scan too.
dey were afraid it was due to some head injury. luckily it was nt.
after dat. dad was put on a drip n den wheeled to the ward.
stayed dere overnight cux his condition was nt stable yet.
spent the whole of the 2nd day dere too.
at night. me n my mum had to go home cux the hosp ruling was dat no one could stay wif the patients.
but when we were leaving, the look on my dad's face.
showed hw scared he was and hw much he din want us to leave.
the 'handshake' dat he gav was realli too hard for me to bear anymore.
it made me rmb hw 2yrs bac.
when i last visited my granny at the hosp too.
the look dat she gav me. n hw she held my hand.
i will nver forget dis cux it was the last handshake dat she gav me.
after dat. i was too busy n din visit her. til she passed away.
seriously. i m having the phobia of goin to hosps.
dat day when i left the hosp, i was so afraid dat the same thing would happen to dad. dats y. on the way bac home, i turned n stared at my mum.
n she asked if i wan to go bac n acc dad. so. we cabbed bac to the hosp agn.
all these days of goin bac n forth to the hosp.
was nt sumthing gd to bear wif.
skipped sch a day cux dad was slotted in for emergency operation.
luckily all went well.
those few days. i kept everything to myself.
i felt a total sense of helplessness. i din hav the mood to tell anyone bout it.
so the beginning of last week was kindda bad.
i had to put on a false front cux nt mani ppl knew bout it.
yes. i m glad dat je was dere for me! made me feel so much better.
okayys. i m alrite nw. finally gt over it.
except for some minor problems wif dad's eye.
he went for follow-up ystd n doc said dere was an infection.
i will try harder to take care of dad's eye den. :D
N I FIXED MY COMP ALRDY! WAHAHAHAHHAA!
one last thing. TML IS THE RELEASE OF PW RESULTS.
wish me gd luck yoo. :D
Happiness!
Alicia.
February 2009
